Employment might not be too far away.
I'll be working with the MRDD group in town, specifically helping with the care of a 24-year-old autistic deaf man. I'll have to be awake overnight a few times a week, BUT, I get to use that time mostly however I please- some cleaning will be involved but mostly I just have to make sure I'm awake in case he decides to get up for some reason. It sounds like a fantastic opportunity. I get to experience working with autism, and with a deaf person. It's a great opportunity to learn ASL (something I have been considering for some time off and on), and it's something moderately related to my field.
But bitch bitch, I never feel appreciated.
It's the same old story.
My mom (of course, as per usual) has a problem with this job, because god forbid I should have to drive out of town to do anything, ever.
I'm just frustrated that nothing I ever give two cents of a shit about is ever met with any positive response from my mother. It feels like nothing I do will ever be good enough for her. And I know this comes off as bitchy and angsty but I don't know what else to do. No one seems to have any advice for me, and everyone seems too keen to jump on the "let's all agree your mom sucks"bandwagon instead of trying to help me understand.
Today's just been a weird day. But I promise good things are happening. I'm learning to play the dumbek (a middle eastern drum), I have lots of drawings in the works, and I'm finally getting around to reading the entire collection of works by Edgar Allen Poe. And with the new job opportunity in sight, I'm trying to overlook the roadblock I ran into today. But living with my mom makes these things hard, and when it seems the only things I'm passionate about are the things that hit the most roadblocks, it reminds me that I have a lot to work on with my mom....
...but it also reminds me that I must be doing the right thing, because anything worth doing is never easy.
I'll be working with the MRDD group in town, specifically helping with the care of a 24-year-old autistic deaf man. I'll have to be awake overnight a few times a week, BUT, I get to use that time mostly however I please- some cleaning will be involved but mostly I just have to make sure I'm awake in case he decides to get up for some reason. It sounds like a fantastic opportunity. I get to experience working with autism, and with a deaf person. It's a great opportunity to learn ASL (something I have been considering for some time off and on), and it's something moderately related to my field.
But bitch bitch, I never feel appreciated.
It's the same old story.
My mom (of course, as per usual) has a problem with this job, because god forbid I should have to drive out of town to do anything, ever.
I'm just frustrated that nothing I ever give two cents of a shit about is ever met with any positive response from my mother. It feels like nothing I do will ever be good enough for her. And I know this comes off as bitchy and angsty but I don't know what else to do. No one seems to have any advice for me, and everyone seems too keen to jump on the "let's all agree your mom sucks"bandwagon instead of trying to help me understand.
Today's just been a weird day. But I promise good things are happening. I'm learning to play the dumbek (a middle eastern drum), I have lots of drawings in the works, and I'm finally getting around to reading the entire collection of works by Edgar Allen Poe. And with the new job opportunity in sight, I'm trying to overlook the roadblock I ran into today. But living with my mom makes these things hard, and when it seems the only things I'm passionate about are the things that hit the most roadblocks, it reminds me that I have a lot to work on with my mom....
...but it also reminds me that I must be doing the right thing, because anything worth doing is never easy.
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